Renew

It is truly amazing how one session of working out ( to be honest, I don't really know whether pilates is really counted ) can change your day for better. I feel so relieved and relax afterwards. Guess it is pretty obvious that I have just done that. Even though, it was a moderate kind of workout which was on my arms and back, boy, does it burn and ache. I am worried I may have exerted myself. I don't understand or get my body very well because sometimes I could mistaken actual pain caused as the burn oh my. That would be the very worst thing ever. I have heard that most of the sports can cause back injury if you are carrying out the activity incorrectly. Hm.

As of now, I am thinking of changing up my blog layout, background and nada but I ain't that into it. Is it weird to always have this feeling of change? Maybe I have mentioned it before, maybe not, however, it is always for the best. I'm trying really hard. Yesterday afternoon, my FIS mates from IMU and I celebrated my dear friend Sharon's birthday! It was great to see all of them even though we did not talk much, nevertheless, still a fun and enjoyable time. I stayed back awhile to catch up with Felice, I have felt that change. Somehow, I can't put it in words. It's not that easy to see her now. But I really do hope, we continue to be the best buds.

Minamotonoya Cafe @ Sri Petaling

There is actually a whole lot more to update about, but nah, I just wanna chill. It has kinda hit me ( the realization ) that I don't have much time anymore. So I should soak up all kinds of TV show, books, music and fitness. I'm getting there. I really hope so. Because I need to this for myself. Ain't no one gonna have your back ( except family ) lol. Watched two movies with my family today as well, first one would be " San Andreas" and the next "Tomorrowland." Awesome. Hehe. I guess that is all I would like to say for now.

Or maybe I would just like to add some ranting here since no one would really give a crap on what I write here huehuehue, so. I have been having a lot of dreams lately. And I cannot remember any of them. All I know is that my mind isn't resting, I imagine so much that I am not getting my sleep. My pillow isn't as soft anymore either sigh. I think it would be too personal to post what I plan to type next so no. I don't know what to do with myself. My mind is overthinking to the max oh my god. Unfortunately, in the worst way ever. Don't mistaken it by negative thoughts, it is not. It's just bad shit that happens to me. I never want that to happen. Maybe I have set my expectations so damn low that I have this kind of imagination. Aghhh, bye.

Cheers

Friday night. Great. I'm in so much pain right now, can't complain because it's natural. The time of the month is here, oh my, I have never felt like this in a long time ugh. For me, everything seems to be going in slow mo. Any kind of move I make feels like daggers digging into my abdomen. With that, feeling sluggish. I slept like a log through the whole afternoon which eventually made me jump straight to the showers without working out. Oh well. I would have to carry on and squeeze in two into a day exercise. This week has been really long for me. I'm fine, Just carrying out everyday normal tasks that has been such a routine.

I try to not blog so much because all I can think about is ranting or might as well vomiting everything out which I find completely useless but that's all I've got. Listening to music and just watching YouTube videos. Sigh. I'm seriously not in the mood to do anything at all. But here I am. Lol. I have to catch up on my reading, studying, progress with my exam/test for my degree and others ( like shopping for formal clothes ) I understand that I may not have as much time left to leisure and spend so yeah, I really appreciate this break..I needed it to improve and heal. Just so that I can become a better person than I was. It's all about the vision you know. 

Two or three years from now, I can see myself as a happier and healthier student furthering her studies in Australia after IMU. I hope to see myself achieve the goals I have written down in diaries or usual sayings in my head. Haha, I might be so totally open typing all of these ramblings down but this is indeed a powerful thing. If you don't have a vision for your future, you might get stuck. Everyday people are not aware of how they should really look out or have a plan for themselves. Sometimes, we're all too caught up in the present till we can't have time to prepare ourselves for the future. I'm not saying that's bad but we all have to start somewhere. Gotta realize what we really want and find what we don't need. 

I have been reading a lot of books, online "articles", unfortunately, not so much on the news. I get that it is really important to keep yourself updated on what's happening in the news. Honestly, it tends to get boring. Like what the shit. The same type of crap is plastered all over the headlines again and again. What some of us are doing is taking that, reading it, judging, posting of how righteous as if we're lawyers, debaters or trying to be someone who we're not. It's getting old. I'm not ever going to get involved in that. See me now, I'm ranting all this b.s. I'm just saying, nah. We all have more important things to do. Like building relationships, our health, career, and lifeline. 

That's all. I really have tonnes more to say but I'm not in the mood. Thanks for reading whoever you are, have a great weekend! Remember to create that vision in your head, no matter how ridiculous it is, because I believe if we have the mindset to do it, I just know we can achieve it. That is how strong and powerful our mind really is. Good luck :)

Pools to bathe in

It has been ages since I've last blogged. Up to now, I'm real good! Everyday is the same usual routine that I have been practicing since the month of April. Just thought of writing a new post since it has been awhile, and thank goodness I already started on my organic chemistry. Settled almost everything, except for my tests and muet exams which I have no clue how to deal with especially when I have paid for my seating for July. But my registration was invalid. Ohh man. I guess the earliest date for me to take the EPT test would be on the 3rd of July. I heard that it is really easy. There goes another 100 bucks. (RM). Mind you.

Downloaded and explored a few songs, chucked them into my phone and MP3. Learned how to cook! Big win and rule the household muahahaha. Besides, I have really connected with my family. This feeling is amazing. Nothing can replace this kind of love, care and giving. I have been watching a few telly program shows such as Amazing Race Australia! It makes the original American one look so not challenging. Gotta love the drama and road blocks they would have to go through. Bucketlist: Join the Amazing Race. No kidding. I love the adrenaline, travelling, and experiencing new things.

Moreover, reading books is definitely leisure time. There has been a couple of books that I have completed. I love reading so much especially when it is paired with tea and music. So chill. I have yet to finish some other books written by Mitch Albom, Dale Carnegie and many others more. Music that really sets my mood right would be bands like Darius, The Japanese House and Shura. Amazing stuff. All courtesy to my brother who will be coming back on the 31st of May! I'm so stoked man.

Well, that's all about it! Thanks for reading.

Always be grateful for what you have, count your blessings and say thank you :)