New Year's Resolutions

So what I have learnt from the year of 2016? I learnt that I have to be independent and mature. Time is passing really fast and reality will just knock on you. Maybe last time I have been dreaming way too much. I really have struggled this year, making choices and decisions that will have a huge impact on my life. Especially handling my own savings, time and transport. I believe that my family will continue to support me in whatever I do. Up till now, I also believe that they know what I am capable of and are happy of my progress now. Another lesson was to move the hell on even though it hurts like shit. Heartbreaks and false hopes. I was in that well for awhile but I guess I sucked in my breath for too long to wait any longer. I hope I will get treated right this time. Then again, not hoping and expecting ahah. I continue to grow and develop a sense of autonomy, independence and self-awareness of myself. Throughout these few months, I guess I ventured even harder into fitness and lifestyle diet choices. Funny how pain can challenge your emotions and goals. I have you to thank for that because I have never felt any better. I am so proud of myself getting here on my own. It is all about the mentality right? I learned to appreaciate my family members and friends. Even though I do not spend as much time with them, I know for sure they feel loved by me. It does not even matter whether I looked silly or idiotic but there I am cracking jokes and all. Guess my confidence just got higher. As for education and work, I love it. I am enjoying each moment of it even though it may get a little bit stressful but as long as I work hard, study smart, I am sure I will be able to get to where I want to be. So many more things that I have learned but there wouldn't be a point to list it all out. Anyway, thank you so much for being such an eventful year. Many things have changed and I do not have any regrets. In addition to that, resolutions this year remain unchanged. Sounds dull right but I wish for everyone happiness. To take care of their health and well-being. The best of wealth. Safety at all times. I will continue to work hard in my course and also gain a deeper level of experience in my workplace setting. The main goal is for me to be happy. I want to be able to prove to them that I really can do this. And I have, will. Happy New Year's Eve! 

Throwback

Second last day to the new year. I am thinking of my past resolutions which were pretty much fulfilled. It suddenly struck to me that I am getting older. Next month I will be turning 21 years old. Which is crazy. But I would want to move forward, I have to let go of those bad events in my past. I will welcome the year of 2017 happily. As of now, I'm listening to Taylor Swift because she really gives you all the feels. I plan to scrapbook and read a lil later today. Gym is also on the schedule which reminds me that I have to cancel the membership in February. So much for an investment sigh. At least I now know better, overall, a great experience and showers are great. I guess I would need to work out independantly and consistently like last time. I learned to love running, using weights and give no shits bout anyone around me there. Used to think that strangers would judge how I look but I learned to give zero eye contact. The other point of this gym membership was to meet new people but I never did. Never have I ever joined a class either. It is never too late but meh my problem to begin with. Honestly, I feel that I just gotta maintain. Now I weigh bout 51.3 kg. Body goals are still out of my reach, but I'll progress eventually. I think I need to invest in a new yoga mat. Mine is so dirty gosh. Moving on to something else, I went shopping in OU yesterday. I guess you can say I have spent alot. It's my own money anyway and I am in love with the things I bought! I'm like the Bershka and H & M girl. Cotton on and Forever 21 is just so cheap. Like material and price wise is not worth it. Overall, I have two pairs of new shoes, six long sleeved sweaters/hoodies, a new pair of jeggings plus two of my mom's one, shorts and yeah. It doesn't sound much but damn it cost me quite a bit. I never really thought bout the CNY feel but more towards the investment long term ship. That's all for now. I really really really did consider piercing my ears but I'm a scared lil loser. Bye. 

Chill

Today was pretty much chill, had home-cooked curry with rice for dinner and too much of sugary sweets like chocolates and melted peanut bars. Other than that, I finished watching the japanese drama recommended by friend. It was really nice, cried a lil in the second last episode. I gotta say it was like a total distraction for me. Like I completely spent my time completing the series and within two days finished! Soon enough I will have to make lists and plans. Which is why I want to go out tomorrow and complete my tasks.

• carry-on bag
• piercings (two)
• gym bottoms
• ipad cover
• shoes

Lala

Looks can be really deceiving. Well, especially when it comes to food cuz yesterday night my parents and I went to try out this thai street food at SS17 and the following morning, all of us had diarrhea lmao. It was that bad. Guess now you can imagine how unhygenic the place is. I didn't realize that it had affected my whole family. No more green curry goodness from there anymore ah well. Mhm, so today was a pretty good day out shopping and filled with laughters. Recently I have watched Rogue One "Star Wars Triology" sorta and just today "Assasin's Creed." Both of it was alright, I really didn't have much expectations but I really enjoyed the action part. Definitely memorable though. So when it came to shopping, I purchased a new pair of flats from Padini because the sole of my heels broke. What nonsense, it was Havaianians! Besides, I also purchased a hoodie from H & M. I'm in love with comfortable long sleeved shirts and jackets. To be honest, I just need a few more tops and then I am good to go. Lately I have also been working out! It makes me so happy. Being able to reach my fitness goals is a source of my happiness. Moreover, I am so grateful to be able to receive a book as a christmas present :) all is well. I love my family and friends so very much. Will continue watching this J-Drama "Proposal Daisakusen" recommended by a friend! Soundcloud is my official stop for dreamworld. I still need to get a new iPad, phone cover as well with some more shopping to do. I will take my mom out more often. I will spend time and support kokobean too. I will help dad out whenever. I failed miserably at getting piercings today as well. Just by looking at the catalogue of the different parts of the ears freaked me out already. Definitely need to....have more courage. That is all.

Remains

In the year of 2016, I am very fortunate to be in this kindergarten as training was provided. Like outsource kind of training such as CPR and AED basic life support. So here is my super duper stressed face because that is actually my resting face lmao. I don't know why I looked so strict but I guess I was really serious when the instructor guided us throughout. I loved the session and experience. Not only am I more confident about that practice but I have gained extra knowledge on this. It's really really important for me especially. The license however I have yet to receive and it is required to be renewed every two years. So yeah. Cool. 

I named my dummy Marco. Heh.

Legit.

Ending with the big bang <3 :) 

I was honestly very suprised to have received these from my children, I had zero expectations and it was really the thought that counts. Extremely thankful and appreaciated. 

Purchased cruelty-free and vegan makeup from BHCosmetics and Colourpop and Wet & Wild. Now I have no reason to purchase anymore because these are loads. LOL. So worth it too btw. 

The concert setting; this picture lies btw. It looks better when you see it lel. 

Made a new friend, Jasmine! Luvvvvvvv :)

Also did something really spontaneous, like going for a mani pedi w/ Niki

@Bubblegumnail ; they did a fantastic job. Gel nail is superb my gawd

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My best baes.

Yenz <3

Mei <3 

This was probably the best event that happened in the year of 2016 (my life)

LINEUP

The 1975

TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB

MARK RONSON

DISCLOSURE

TEMPER TRAP

ANGUS AND JULIA STONE

(& others which I was not really impressed by oops bye)

Four months by and a day after Christmas

Goodness, it has been way too long. To be honest, there have been times where I wanted to put in on paper. But I guess I never really did put in the effort. Nevertheless, it is the last week of the year and I am so glad to be on this path. I am so much happier, and mentally, physically stronger. Knowing that I am able to work towards my goals and certain achievements makes me confident entering the new year. It was my bad to neglect this blog of mine where I usually pour my heart out and rant all those random b.s. But I don't want to do that anymore. I want to be able to really focus on the good energy. Really appreciate everything that I have with my life especially from the support I gain from family and friends. To me, this year was a year of growth, acceptance and reality checks. I am no longer that idiotic selfish girl I was ahhaa. Looking back, like really looking back I must have been such a pain in the ass, not to say that I'm not now, I am a girl after all with some raging hormones but whatever. I guess I can fairly say I have had my share of experience and am able to be independent. In some ways, I have learned to be more mature. Maturity is definitely important. Besides, I have read some motivational life changing books and I have yet to read another four more. This is the first time switching on my laptop after my exams. Goodness. I'm not really that interested in watching shows because I'm so into books I rather much focus on that. Watching Youtube is really entertaining but something bout the content gets me hyped. The content is realistic, real and beautiful. It inspires me to look at life from a different perspective. People there, they taught me how to handle challenges, how to bake, how to be creative, how to revise better, how to improve on my speech and writing skills, how to workout, how to do stuff in general. I still suck in makeup but I guess au natural is the way to go. Moving on to my point, I have never felt more comfortable in my skin. I'm ready for 2017. And the list goes on. I will personally have to write them down. Here I just feel like whoever is reading out there, don't give up. Everything will really get better with time. When life flows, hits you or whatever, just persevere. We are all alive, why not make use of what you've got instead of looking on the bad side? I am just so extremely grateful and blessed. Never once taken that for granted. Love, Jie Xi xx