Coastal Love

I'd never thought I would say this but I'm starting to be into Honne music. It's been too late for me to figure this out but better late than never. Clock just strike 7PM and the skies are as lovely as ever. I really wish I could go out and walk. Put some music on and just simply walk around my neighborhood. I can't think of anything better way to just chill. You have no clue how much hair I'm losing due to stress and overthinking lol. My taste in music varies everyday and I have been listening to all the old songs I played when I was high in love. This isn't cuz I'm rethinking the moments I had but more to that, I imagine that when I do get into a "ship", I will only have these feelings. It doesn't really make sense does it? In a way, we don't need a reason for everything we do. We just do whatever we feel like it without considering others. For once. 

I spent my day at home revising General Chemistry. I have to finish this tonight!!! Only then I can move on. The way I revise to make sure that I completely understand so that I am able to apply the concept into my answers as I read the question. I kinda realize what a huge mistake I did last year. And it's great. My first semester test results are good! Except for that one paper which I looked down on haih. Just had my dinner and finished all the chores omg. I mean, if you are responsible, why don't you just carry out to do that task? It's just that some people are lazy. *ahem* Anyway, I'll get back to revising. That's my 100% focus right now.

The Forest hehu

I had a pretty good weekend. Celebrated my 20th birthday early with my family, since it is this coming Friday, at Souled Out at Sri Hartamas. The food did not disappoint however, the interior design completely changed. I was kind of hoping of that night funky vibe coolness they had last time. It was dark and so romantic because of the lit candles. Now they have replaced it with a battery-powered lamp. My dad who was really lovely surprised my mom and I with a brand new watch! Am so absolutely thankful for this. I have had one before from my beloved teacher and I used to wear it a lot two years ago, don't know why I stopped but I'll wear this one religiously from now on huheuhue. 

And that was on a Saturday night. Had a short stop to Publika to get some goods too. 

Yesterday night was pretty awesome because I watched "The Forest" with my siblings and Wan Ning (LOL) I really really enjoyed the movie. First, the storyline is great and the way the director made this movie is quite realistic. The ending was good too. Not like other crappy horror movies where it does make any sense. It was my brother's first time watching a horror movie in a cinema, and heh, he left way before halfway. My sister is brave although she closed her eyes at some parts. I convinced both of them to go even though they were reluctant, and in the end, they were right. They couldn't sleep heheheh. Not my purpose but I thought they would really enjoy it. Me, on the other hand, slept pretty well. I felt like this was a great start to the new year! I'll only get to fitness and workout regime during my semester break, along with my job. 

Nice.

Lovely

Time and the weather is a really wonderful thing. I'm actually really blessed to be living in Malaysia despite the humid hot weather. I like how when it's about 6:30PM or 7:00PM, I would be able to see skies like these. So lovely and comforting. In fact, I'd really want to take a stroll outside. It has been way too long but the fact that I look like a mess and didn't shave my legs. Maybe some other day. Besides, went to uni this morning for two meetings and a class. Both of them went well. Just one more day to attend to uni just to finish up an e-poster. I can't believe that I'm about to finish my first semester. Gotta get my ass down to start revising general chemistry omg. Was thinking bout baking oatmeal cookies because I don't have any snacks at home besides apples :( 

Some time to reminiz here, yesterday night, Ceymone and I skyped together rushing to finish out genetics report even though the due date is next Monday. I have learnt that there is still so much more to learn from others. We were sharing YouTube videos with each other, scary stories from reddit, and to talking bout "The Forest." Thankfully, we both finished it and handed it up today. All bout teamwork yo! Listening to the japanese house now. Perfect. 

Real

Just got back home not too long ago from uni. Finally, there are no more tests! I thought I did pretty well this time and it was definitely better than the first. But only the results can tell so yea. Having stomach cramps right now :( it sucks. Now I can really get down to focusing on my other subjects like general chemistry. Looking at the sample paper freaks me out already sigh. Not feeling too well either. Last night I sorta stayed up studying. Drinking Nescafe coffee gives me a serious headache. My head was pounding and my hands were shaking. Never again. Haih. This is a pointless blog post because all I want to do right now is rest, watch paranormal activity and maybe sleep. Since it's been a few days in the new year, I seriously need to stick to my workout regime. As I sit here on my bed, I also can't wait for my package to arrive from lazada lol. I hope it arrives today! Ok, I'm done ranting. Bye. Picture below is unrelated but I would really want to travel to some places with my friends. It would be really really cool.

Thinking bout it

It has been a really bad day. I had a lab practical, class and problem-based learning case discussion today. First, I had the weirdest dream of my life. This dream was so vivid and full of impact I don't know whether I actually slept. It involved the people who I'm really close to and it was so awkward and bad. I can't remember the details but I just hope I don't get dreams like that again. Next, I intentionally set my alarm just an hour before my practical. Huge mistake. I rushed like mad because it will always take me at least half-an-hour to get to my uni. And well, accidents happen. I'm really disappointed with myself even if it wasn't a big deal. My family and friends are just thankful that I'm safe. I am too, but this guilt where you caused trouble is just upsetting. For me, anything that has got to do with money, it has got me worried as hell. I absolutely dislike spending money, not that I'm selfish, I'm just so careful with it. I don't want to spend on useless crap! Still. Very very very thankful I'm okay. A lil while after that, I got to uni in time. Thank you God.

The worst has yet to come. One of my worst performances in lab practical. My hands just kept shaking. I couldn't stop it. Besides that, I just kept getting phone calls and it was getting out of hand. Don't you think people should get the message if you didn't pick up the call after sixteen times??! Sigh. This practical was tricky too. It had alot of steps and I was pretty bad at time management. Again, thankfully my lab partner and I managed to hand it in. I'm so serious that if I just depended on others to take the lead, my whole bench group would literally die. It's that frustrating. I am so grateful that it is my last practical of the first semester. It took me three hours this time. Had lunch after that and soon, was my human physio class on the endocrine system. Only then, my PBL session. It was pretty cool and chill during that class. I really liked listening to other people's point of view. Somehow the more people you mix with, you can really know their side of the story. So yea.

My next downfall for today, is when I got my synthesis and genetics report back. I worked really hard for it. Dedicated a lot of time and effort on it and yet my grade is just average. Gotta work better and smarter next time then as the saying goes. Sigh. I even shed a few tears just now talking to my dad. Family can really bring out the emotion out of you. Like crazy fast man. Can you imagine how a day like this is like? Just finished revising on alcohols and the e-poster on Principles of Human Nutrition. So right now, since my brain is fried, I shall start of my genetics. Till then!

Blood is thicker than water

As the caption above, clearly family is everything. No matter how many times we fight, we would always love each other. Even though, at times I may be blind and inconsiderate of how others feel, I promise to keep my cool and try to make things okay. I am really grateful to be alive and well here. Moving on really quickly, to an appreciation post to my parents and sister for the gifts they got for me from Japan. It is really overdue but better late than never. P.s I am not in any way trying to show off. I'd just like to share what I've gotten for Christmas. So so so so grateful.

• A "Jess" mini-plush key chain from DisneySea
• A "Maquillage" lipstick
• Abercrombie & Fitch clothing
• "Shellie May" bear <3 

Below are as follows, you can find the exact piece online on their website:  ABERCROMBIE

The quality is BOMB. hehu

Mirror

I really wanted to rant my feelings of anger, pain, sadness and disappointment just now. Fortunately I had a friend to listen to it all. And it was really pointless anyway cuz by the end of it. This blog post would have been deleted. Holding on to pain is like crushing a hot black coal on your hand, and you're the one who's feeling the pain. By this, how you control your feelings; pain, is entirely up to you. Don't take it out on other people who don't deserve it. It just really shows how weak you are. No matter how pent up or frustrated you are, can you just relax? After all, you're the one who told me you've read so many books on religion and self-therapy, Or is it just me being mature enough to know when to show my feelings? I admit, I'm weak. Weak shit as some stem from a plant. Still, you don't have to shout!!! omg. I don't get the point of this post. I just wanna say that I got inspired a whole lot today. And I plan to make 2016 the best years of my life!!!! Nothing will stop me from getting to my goals. I know what I want. This vision is mine. If I can do this, you can too!! :D #muchpositivity Ok, I gotta go finish up my organic chemistry. I have a class test this coming Thursday. God knows why I'm so relaxed. Despite what I said earlier, I'll just record some more here. I hope to go out tomorrow and buy some stuff. Like new pairs of contact lens, a razor and check out some makeup? And maybe some time to myself. I forgot to mention too that I plan to go full vegan. No more fckin meat. Ugh. Before that, kinda need to do a blood test first to see my levels. I need to get a job to earn some of cash $$$ woohoo. Purchased something from lazada yesterday night, I seriously hope it was reliable. Baked some sugar cookies on the night of New Years. It was so good T_T I finished most of them. I also wanted to work out today but to some crap situation here, no. Great way to start the year is to wake up early tomorrow and settle my stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really need to be more serious bout this. I have gained weight. Sigh sigh. To a better me!! Bye.