I'm still here. Striving. Sooo I have just completed watching some youtube videos. Apparently, Sunday is the only day I have my break. Work is challenging? I'm getting there. I have yet to sit for the MII exam oh my goodness. Revising the book is worse than studying history. Maybe I am exaggerating and I have not completely understood all the terms and policies stated in the book, but I really can't wait to be done with them exam. After that, I would need to complete another exam. This job really does questions my presence. Am I really in it for the experience or for my savings? It may be both but I won't give up now. Not even close to soon. I have learnt a lot and I know there is so much more this industry can offer. I know that in the near future I will be busy. People or friends if I can say, don't realize how important their life or purpose in life is. It's such a disappointment. As they all say, things will get better. Oh I really do hope I get good news! I can only hope and have a bit of luck. Driving around town is getting better as well.
This afternoon, my parents and I headed down to Sungei Wang. Main purpose is to purchase a cheongsam yeah, no kidding. The last cheongsam I wore was probably when I was 7 years old? Grateful that the one I have bought was cheaper than the others I saw. Had to buy it because there's an event dinner this coming Thursday. Bought a new pair of flats and that's it. I really really need to buy a new purse. Why are beautiful quality made accessories so expensive? :( hmph. The clock shall strike 11pm soon so I shall get back to revising. Off to work tomorrow morning! Long days are here.
Sunday, 8 February 2015
Tuesday, 3 February 2015
Blame myself
Everyday, I truly try to make time to workout. I don't really have much of a reasonable excuse to skip because I actually do it at home. In my room. On the floor. No equipment, just my trusty lovely lavender yoga mat which is soaked with sweat every time I'm done but it's a great one cuz it's long, thick and ensures stability. In fact, I purchased this yoga mat last year when I attended yoga class in my university. As I look back now, it's not worth it anymore. The timetable is set to the schedule that it is always after class, I mean duh who else would join but I am saying in the sense that it takes time and I would have to hold back on dinner and shower later at night. First world problems. However, for the price of RM100, once a week, for three months straight. It's awesome.
I first found yoga challenging, because it was really a new experience. I knew bout pop pilates a long time ago and if I were to measure these two types of exercise, I would definitely choose to do pilates. Pilates helped me sweat and tone my body more. Yoga is more of relaxation and flexibility. What is even better is that you can even practice pilates at home. Just go on YouTube +blogilates Cassey Ho is an amazing instructor. On the other hand, pilates is more challenging than yoga. So I would definitely opt for that choice. This year to me is all about change.
I had a really great post-workout feeling. Not bragging lol. Here to make some notes? It's the month on February so I would encourage all of you to print out the calender and #30DaysButtChallenge heh! I hope to follow it as much as I can. Right. As much as I hate cardio and burpees, do it for the change! Blame myself for eating unhealthy, carbs, late night snacks, processed biscuits, instant noodles and all that horrible food. I don't even know what took over me. This time I have got to control. What studies does to me. Hah.
These past few days I have been studying for a pre-contact examination. And it is tomorrow. Like what on earth am I doing now right? I finished 30 chapters and I still don't feel ready. This is totally not a good sign. The exam is based on financial studies, corporate, rules and regulations ( a.k.a they said common sense ) what. Really hope I can do this. Because so very very soon, I will be working full-time say my shift is like 9am-7pm. My goodness. How to aim for my goal body right? Lol. That is really the least of my worries. This job I applied for is going to be challenging but worth as heck.
That is all. I should really get back to studying, revising and stuff. Anyone can recommend a good concealer for my under eye dark circles? It's so bad. Up to today, I have watched "Into the Woods", "Unbroken", "Blackhat" and more...which I forgot but they're all really average. I would love to watch "Love, Rosie" though! Chinese New Year is around the corner. Till then!
I first found yoga challenging, because it was really a new experience. I knew bout pop pilates a long time ago and if I were to measure these two types of exercise, I would definitely choose to do pilates. Pilates helped me sweat and tone my body more. Yoga is more of relaxation and flexibility. What is even better is that you can even practice pilates at home. Just go on YouTube +blogilates Cassey Ho is an amazing instructor. On the other hand, pilates is more challenging than yoga. So I would definitely opt for that choice. This year to me is all about change.
I had a really great post-workout feeling. Not bragging lol. Here to make some notes? It's the month on February so I would encourage all of you to print out the calender and #30DaysButtChallenge heh! I hope to follow it as much as I can. Right. As much as I hate cardio and burpees, do it for the change! Blame myself for eating unhealthy, carbs, late night snacks, processed biscuits, instant noodles and all that horrible food. I don't even know what took over me. This time I have got to control. What studies does to me. Hah.
These past few days I have been studying for a pre-contact examination. And it is tomorrow. Like what on earth am I doing now right? I finished 30 chapters and I still don't feel ready. This is totally not a good sign. The exam is based on financial studies, corporate, rules and regulations ( a.k.a they said common sense ) what. Really hope I can do this. Because so very very soon, I will be working full-time say my shift is like 9am-7pm. My goodness. How to aim for my goal body right? Lol. That is really the least of my worries. This job I applied for is going to be challenging but worth as heck.
That is all. I should really get back to studying, revising and stuff. Anyone can recommend a good concealer for my under eye dark circles? It's so bad. Up to today, I have watched "Into the Woods", "Unbroken", "Blackhat" and more...which I forgot but they're all really average. I would love to watch "Love, Rosie" though! Chinese New Year is around the corner. Till then!
Saturday, 31 January 2015
Self-care
My hair now smells like raw apple cider. It has that really sour tangy feel. However, it feels good. Hahaha, I have just completed the last workout of the JanYouary month from blogilates. Even though I did not follow each of the workouts as follows on each day, I feel better. They ( quota I don't know ) said it takes 4 weeks to see yourself changing, 12 weeks for them to realize then I forgot bout the rest heh. Couldn't really be bothered. It's been such a pain to not exercise for the past three days due to reasons. Therefore I am excused. Reasonably.
Lately, I have been watching and observing a lot of YouTubers, how they properly take care of themselves and all. To be really honest, I always wanted to try that, but not enough confidence. Plus, no face, no bod, it ain't gonna work for me. Make-up is expensive lol, no matter what it just is. I know that make-up can make a huge difference to our appearance. Enhance to our inner glow and all. Damn my dark circles. I just need to get enough sleep. I try, but social media is my caffeine.
On the 4th of February, I am about to sit for a really important exam. I know that once I have passed this, I shall move on to bigger challenges. I'm not scared yet but I know I should be. This will really push me to my highest limit. It's more like coming out of the box, the comfort zone. Hm, just now, I went to the Setia Alam night market, there were many stalls selling the same type of things, chinese new year is around the corner and each stall had biscuits, snacks and many others more which was expensive! Like whoa, what on earth.
Well, I gotta get back to studying. I always say that. Tonight, I would have to revise back another seven chapters. Tomorrow, nine. Full on. Bye! Hope you all had an awesome January! To better beginnings.
Lately, I have been watching and observing a lot of YouTubers, how they properly take care of themselves and all. To be really honest, I always wanted to try that, but not enough confidence. Plus, no face, no bod, it ain't gonna work for me. Make-up is expensive lol, no matter what it just is. I know that make-up can make a huge difference to our appearance. Enhance to our inner glow and all. Damn my dark circles. I just need to get enough sleep. I try, but social media is my caffeine.
On the 4th of February, I am about to sit for a really important exam. I know that once I have passed this, I shall move on to bigger challenges. I'm not scared yet but I know I should be. This will really push me to my highest limit. It's more like coming out of the box, the comfort zone. Hm, just now, I went to the Setia Alam night market, there were many stalls selling the same type of things, chinese new year is around the corner and each stall had biscuits, snacks and many others more which was expensive! Like whoa, what on earth.
Well, I gotta get back to studying. I always say that. Tonight, I would have to revise back another seven chapters. Tomorrow, nine. Full on. Bye! Hope you all had an awesome January! To better beginnings.
Thursday, 29 January 2015
Respect
I'm not a giver. I'm not a follower. And I am definitely stubborn.
I don't think it's fair that I should always follow people's orders ( a.k.a not in the sense of leadership or anything but yeah whatever ) I am actually suppose to listen and pay attention to what people say. Take in it mind and stuff. Well, forgive me if I did not. But accusing and assuming of all the damns I have done in my past will not fucking change anything. I hate it when I am being reminded of what has happened. Yet, you use it against me. Like my own will is actually deteriorating because of this. Heck, I am not blaming anyone, I'm just simply saying why you gotta freaking bring it up again. It was as if I have forgotten my place but I didn't. I have been trying to make amends and helping around tons. Now this happens.
You give up. I didn't. You say a lot things when your mind and tongue is on fire. That's what I see, all that I have done is never enough to cover. Even the past, my past is long and dead gone. All I remember and know is to move forward. I swear, I am trying to forget it. I have even forgiven myself and the other party. Fucked up over a lot of things. Can't help crying. But then by the next day, it will be alright. It was only in for the moment but the mind stays traumatized, angry and somehow suicidal. What I do? I just keep my life simple and forget all about it.
Forgetting is like therapy. It's easy to forget the matter that hurts but what is hard is that comes back like dejavu. Emotionally and physically tired. Both of us are. And I'm ready to face it all again. Maybe I feel stronger and better once I accept it. But it's been so damn long already. I made a mistake and I'm bound to be vulnerable at times. This time now, I truly understand. So much for thinking I could fix this when in fact I'm not the one with the issue, temper and all.
"No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again. " - Buddha
I don't think it's fair that I should always follow people's orders ( a.k.a not in the sense of leadership or anything but yeah whatever ) I am actually suppose to listen and pay attention to what people say. Take in it mind and stuff. Well, forgive me if I did not. But accusing and assuming of all the damns I have done in my past will not fucking change anything. I hate it when I am being reminded of what has happened. Yet, you use it against me. Like my own will is actually deteriorating because of this. Heck, I am not blaming anyone, I'm just simply saying why you gotta freaking bring it up again. It was as if I have forgotten my place but I didn't. I have been trying to make amends and helping around tons. Now this happens.
You give up. I didn't. You say a lot things when your mind and tongue is on fire. That's what I see, all that I have done is never enough to cover. Even the past, my past is long and dead gone. All I remember and know is to move forward. I swear, I am trying to forget it. I have even forgiven myself and the other party. Fucked up over a lot of things. Can't help crying. But then by the next day, it will be alright. It was only in for the moment but the mind stays traumatized, angry and somehow suicidal. What I do? I just keep my life simple and forget all about it.
Forgetting is like therapy. It's easy to forget the matter that hurts but what is hard is that comes back like dejavu. Emotionally and physically tired. Both of us are. And I'm ready to face it all again. Maybe I feel stronger and better once I accept it. But it's been so damn long already. I made a mistake and I'm bound to be vulnerable at times. This time now, I truly understand. So much for thinking I could fix this when in fact I'm not the one with the issue, temper and all.
"No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again. " - Buddha
Sunday, 25 January 2015
Careless
I have just reached page 58 of Mitch Albom's 'Tuesdays with Morrie' and it is definitely an interesting read. His books are extremely uplifting and heart-warming. Thanks to my sister and mother for recommending me to read the books. As for now, I am blogging chilling on my bed. Just had lunch, completed some house chores. Awaiting for a message for me to collect the book I'm supposed to study for but no notice at all.
I'd like to ask. Really spontaneously. When is the first time you actually used make-up? Like with all the foundation, concealer, bronzer, mascara, eyeliner, lipstick and others. I know a few things here and there. Maybe interested in experimenting but I find it's expensive? Yeah, you could probably say go ahead and buy some from drugstores Watsons or either Guardian. I prove their quality otherwise. If you were to apply make-up to your face, you might as well splurge on good quality ones. Lately I have had my eyes on NARS cosmetics. My friend said it's really good so yeah.
I don't know why lately that I am being so careless. My feelings are thrown off at times. I need to control it somehow. I honestly miss my friends. From highschool hah, talked to buzy this morning and it was pretty good. Will be skyping with Kessh later tonight. And if I ever get the guts to go out tomorrow, praise the lord. That is all.
I'd like to ask. Really spontaneously. When is the first time you actually used make-up? Like with all the foundation, concealer, bronzer, mascara, eyeliner, lipstick and others. I know a few things here and there. Maybe interested in experimenting but I find it's expensive? Yeah, you could probably say go ahead and buy some from drugstores Watsons or either Guardian. I prove their quality otherwise. If you were to apply make-up to your face, you might as well splurge on good quality ones. Lately I have had my eyes on NARS cosmetics. My friend said it's really good so yeah.
I don't know why lately that I am being so careless. My feelings are thrown off at times. I need to control it somehow. I honestly miss my friends. From highschool hah, talked to buzy this morning and it was pretty good. Will be skyping with Kessh later tonight. And if I ever get the guts to go out tomorrow, praise the lord. That is all.
Saturday, 24 January 2015
Got me saying la la
I am never good in keeping in contact or touch with my friends. Not even the closest ones to me. To me, I just know that we don't have to be constantly talking to each other or keeping up on tabs with them to maintain the friendship. I'm sure some of us are like this. It's not that I don't bother, I would actually feel I am bothering the person just by saying "hi." It's not hard. I know. However, I'm just like that. Personally, if I were the one who would greet or text first, it's like a point to continue on with the conversation. I don't have that initiative. Unfortunately.
Of course it would be definitely nice to be found first. Sorry, that's not me. I don't really reply texts that are pointless. Like, there's nothing else to talk about, useless to continue on with the conversation. Or maybe I'm just not that cooperative in making conversation. Lol. Sounds boring to be me. Everyone is different. Although I'm like this, I'm thankful to have friends who understand that I'm like this. Wooh. I know I'm not the only one heh.
These past few days I have been busy I guess, helping around the house most of the time. Spending more time with parents. Yesterday I have officially got down to the real business which I am ready to take the challenge on. I don't know how it will go but I'm hoping for the best. I think I look...immature or erm shy? Strangers perceive me to be inexperienced which well I am. But I think I can do better. I'll have to try. And I don't give up easily. No.
I really don't want judge anyone by the outside means of it but if it bothers you so much and it's really none of your business, why do you care so much? Let people be. You gotta accept the fact people are different. Their mindsets, thinking and attitude. It's known that you can't change everyone to be exactly like you right? Maybe I can say this because I have literally burned all the bridges. No regrets, just lessons learnt.
I'm pretty content with my life right now. I have time. At the same time not so much, I am about to start working, preparing for exams, driving around more, meet new people, discovering all types of new music, spending forever more time with my family, read more books, gain more knowledge, exercise, get fit and eat clean. I guess ( I'm sure that ) I am on the right track. Always count your blessings, appreciate everything around you and love your loved ones. Ciao!
Wednesday, 21 January 2015
Hai
It's been a while since I have blogged. I don't know what kept me away for so long. I really want to but I guess I didn't have the mood for it. Now watching Transformers: Dark of the Moon. Rosie Huntington is really pretty! Envy of all Victoria Secret's models. This is really random but I like the Instagram app the most. So much pictures to view and observe. I pretty much procrastinate my time using that app. Twitter is getting boring lately. Everyone is busy and getting on with their lives. Here I am just at home. Not that I'm complaining.
Luckily for me, I have the access to download the lecture notes online but I'm not even sure myself if it is the correct one. One semester six months. There's dang a lot to study. So looks like I would have to cover as much as I can. My driving on the other hand is alright. GDI. Nothing I can do. I'm alone at home with the telly switched on with the part-time maid cleaning my house. Sister is in college, mom is out doing her hair and my dad is working.
I really dislike breakouts. Acne. Pimples. Dry skin. Well that is the condition of my skin right now, especially since it the time on the month. Sigh. I have skipped three days of the calendar workout already. Nothing I can do LOL. I have tried but my body isn't working. I try to eat clean now since it's 80% diet and 20% fitness. Lately, I have been posting a lot of videos and they have been helpful.
I try to be as informative as I can. I just need to be better. I feel as if I do still suck, like a loser.
Hmm, just this last Monday, my friends Kessh and Felice came over and surprised me at my house. God, I cried. Hahaha, it was just really good to see them and we went to the Curve, had lunch and tried Dip N' Dip for the first time. I honestly would not go back there, it's not to my fancy. Besides, we hung out at Borders for a lil' while and bought myself a novel " The Ghost Bride." I am only page 19 so nothing much I can say. I like how the story goes so far.
That is about it. Nothing much to update about. I have been getting a lot of invites to hang but I don't have the initiative. And I just know that I can't. I'm busy. But like at home. Helping out and stuff. Maybe if I arrange my time properly then it would be better. I just want to be fit, healthy...main goal right now ahahah. Since I have time for my degree. Alright.
Luckily for me, I have the access to download the lecture notes online but I'm not even sure myself if it is the correct one. One semester six months. There's dang a lot to study. So looks like I would have to cover as much as I can. My driving on the other hand is alright. GDI. Nothing I can do. I'm alone at home with the telly switched on with the part-time maid cleaning my house. Sister is in college, mom is out doing her hair and my dad is working.
I really dislike breakouts. Acne. Pimples. Dry skin. Well that is the condition of my skin right now, especially since it the time on the month. Sigh. I have skipped three days of the calendar workout already. Nothing I can do LOL. I have tried but my body isn't working. I try to eat clean now since it's 80% diet and 20% fitness. Lately, I have been posting a lot of videos and they have been helpful.
I try to be as informative as I can. I just need to be better. I feel as if I do still suck, like a loser.
Hmm, just this last Monday, my friends Kessh and Felice came over and surprised me at my house. God, I cried. Hahaha, it was just really good to see them and we went to the Curve, had lunch and tried Dip N' Dip for the first time. I honestly would not go back there, it's not to my fancy. Besides, we hung out at Borders for a lil' while and bought myself a novel " The Ghost Bride." I am only page 19 so nothing much I can say. I like how the story goes so far.
That is about it. Nothing much to update about. I have been getting a lot of invites to hang but I don't have the initiative. And I just know that I can't. I'm busy. But like at home. Helping out and stuff. Maybe if I arrange my time properly then it would be better. I just want to be fit, healthy...main goal right now ahahah. Since I have time for my degree. Alright.
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